Fair't. Middling.

NOt sure how well that phrase is known around the world but it basically means round-a-bout average. I sums me up quite well. I aren't that athletic, or good looking or even that good of a person. In all off these I would class myself as fair t' middling. Its a posistion I have grown up in. I have never been the biggest or brightest, I was always inbetween, it worked. I am still around otherwise how would I be writing this? But now that I have reached a ripe old age I am starting to realise that average isn't what people want. People always want more. More of everything. So the average joe doesn't stand a chance. You may think that I am being all melodramatic but take a look around, you can see it everywhere. Sadly I don't see this changing any time soon. People in general cannot help themselves if there is something slightly better on offer then they want it. I for one can't fault that attitude, it makes sense get the best you can with what you have got. Sometimes though in some areas of life you won't ever get the best but what you get can be the best you ever have.
I like people, sorry forget that I like strangers is the more apt way of phrasing it. Strangers judge on what they can see as it is all they have to judge by and boy do people like to judge. I don't make a good first impression with the way I look but I would class myself as a decent person. I can make anyone feel good about themselves, and make people feel welcome, a phenomenon I don't often get to see from the other side.
I have learnt to not show much emotion, not because its a sign of weakness but because if people see you sad then they ask why, and I don't need people reminding me that I aren't the happiest of bunnies, I do like to smile though. Lots of people don't see me smile that much because I am apparently quite a miserable person. Bu I know what I like and want in life. I want to be wanted, not to be needed. I have skills that I use to make other peoples lives easier and I am always willing to help in any way that I possibly can. Although there is a fine line to walk in this respect, you can be the guy who sorts everything out for everyone else (commonly known as a MUG) or you can be the friend. and thats what annoys me.