I enjoy people struggling, especially with addition. I have done more then my fair share of substances, I used to drink abusively, and when you couple that with well lets just say it involves needles and smoking and leave it at that. I quit for personal reasons.
Quitting for me was a somewhat easy thing to do, I have the ability to supress parts of my psyche. So it took me about one month to quit smoking, all I did was shut down my instinct to smoke, simple as that. When I saw how much it was saving me financially it set me straight, roughly forty pounds a month was alot when I was only making just over a hundred pound in the same period of time. When it came to the harder things, I needed a little help but I didn't get what I was expecting in that aspect. It took a death of a friend to make me buck my ideas up so when that happened I just cut ties. Every once in a while I get in touch with my stoner friends when I want to just hang out in a field and dance to crap music, but I don't touch anything like that anymore.
I have one regret though, I have suppressed the ability to love openly. It means that I can't actually express my true feelings for people no matter how much I want to.Sadly there is one addiction I have never been able to kick and thats the emotional pain. So when there is a patch out for that I hope you'll let me know.
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