Gutless. Toast.

I went for a wander in the darkness of a winter evening night to asda simply to pick up some sugar. Winter is my favourite time of the year, the ice that covers the ground may be a hazard for people but it also bounces the light of the city around casting a soft orange glow upon my route. I may seem to be romanticising the notion of a freezing cold walk to shop. The thing is I do see it with rose-tinted glasses, simply because of the reason I do it. I embark upon this trek simply to put a smile on my face by seeing the one person who makes me smile without fail. And her amazing-ness I can't think of another way to explain it she is miraculous. Noone has ever made me feel as good about myself as she does. Then when I discovered she wasn't there I must admit I was a little disappointed but then bumping into her in store soon remedied this. So yeah I do only go to see her as opposed to for food. I work next door to a different supermarket. Then when the opportunity to walk her home I chickened out, hence the gutless.

The biggest wish I have is to share a slice of toast with her. little wish but to me thats a biggy.

Still. Magical.

Just been to see her and its still magical seeing her smile.

Its. Me.

So seeing as how this is my blog I figured its about time I share who Iam, and the few readers that I have should know me unless they have stumbled upon it by accident, if thats the case then hi! Okay you can probably guess that I'm a guy, kinda obvious when you think about it. What I will say though is I aren't a stereotypical bloke, my appearance isn't that good, and I like chocolate. Well thats not really that helpful. I'll try again. My hair is a perpetual mess, its like permanent bedhead and its brown. then underneath that I'm quite oily skinned and fairly tanned but only on my arms and face. I am actually really pale and embarrassed by my body, I know I could do to work out but meh.
I do love little things, like walking down the street with my headphones on and singing along with my music. I aren't a very good singer though so if I offend then I apologise in advance. You are always welcome to have a listen but it is a random mix of genres. Hope you don't mind.
The other most important thing you need to know is I fall for people, and I fall fast and don't get up very quickly, I have been hurt quite a bit and have some scars from it so I have problems expressing my feelings for people hence why I use this blog.

Been. Months.

So after a long-ish hiatus in fact almost a year, I have returned to fuel your mind with my normal brand of worrying and nonsensical ramblings.
Well if you have read this blog ever you will know I am not the most confident in life. I struggle with most things, unless you count sarcasm, I'm good at that. So this is all about asking for advice, I can talk most people into things but I want a certain someone to want me for me. I have met her and find myself thinking about her lots I even walk two miles out of my way on route to work so I can see her. The strangest thing is though I can feel myself getting happier just by being around her.
Normally I wouldn't have problems with this, and to be honest its not a problem, but I want to kiss her but I cannae as I see her when she is at work. So heres the dilemma I have faith in my abilities but I don't want a one night stand I want to form an actual relationship. Any help would be greatly appreciated.