Someone. Help.

Ok my head hurts, not sure why, it could be because I kinda punched myself in the head. Not on purpose it just fell onto my fist as I was kinda sleepy. Believe it or not thats not why I need help!
Recently I have been taking a look at myself, both literally and metaphorically, I am actually trying to be a better person, in any way possible, I have started dressing more appropriately so no more boardshorts and top hats for a li'l while or until I slip back into my comfort zone. I have even been being sociable (I hate that word it always looks like I spelt it incorrectly) talking to old friends and making new ones, well one really, I figure its about time I grow up, my life is starting to so I may aswell not drag my heels and look upon this as a new experience. I like what I am, its kinda reclusive and maybe a little doogie howser-ish. (hope you get the reference if not then thats what google is for!) But it pays the bills and gets me through day to day and it gives me time to constantly update my little slice of headspace. (a.k.a. this blog)just in case you didn't guess) So yeah I am a decent person, I aren't overly good or bad I have a ok balance between the two, and from being like that I have a small group of friends, well more than two hands worth. Its often noticed how I treat the friends I have very well, almost to the point of family. I help out when they need money or a place to crash or numerous other things that a friend should do, its writen in the code of friendship. So I am basically there when anyone needs anything even if it means putting myself at great risk, but thats what friends do! they are there for one another, if thats the case where are they when I need someone. Not money or a bed for the night but just someone to talk to so I don't have to keep things bottled up. Normally I sit on the roof with a guitar and sing my troubles away into the night sky but thats no good when you need someone to tell you that everything is going to be ok or to just say nothing and give you a hug. It takes maybe six seconds to give someone a hug, and possibly another four seconds to say it'll all turn out right. That is ten seconds, ten seconds to make someone feel good for maybe five minutes, do you realise how powerful that is? You could prevent a war (theoretically) with just that one sentiment. So yeah I doubt anyone would offer because I aren't the typical guy people look for in life but could just one person spare about ten minutes just so I had someone to talk to. Probably not, but on the off chance someone will, you know where I'll be, just follow the sound of thoughts crashing to the ground, and I'll be there!

Sorry for wasting your time with this post but well, when friends fail I always have random people on the internet to rely on, I mean someone has to stumble upon this place surely.