Tuesday, 11 August 2009

Self Harm.

Its a funny thing self harm, well not funny par se but its an interesting topic. Lets say a person is so morally depressed that they cut themself, where does it get them? I was thinking about that earlier, I aren't going to start cutting myself, but seriously what does it do? Quite a few of my friends used to or still do cut themselves, one of them thinks it makes him look tough. Well thats gotta be the worst reason out of the numerous that I have heard. I mean when you think about it how does cuting into something that is dead make sense. Its dead skin it has no feeling to it until you get through atleast a couple of layers. But there is a common misconception to self harming and most people overlook it but what about the emotional pain its less visable and in a lot of cases more painful. My personal preference is emotional pain. Not only does it eat away at you constantly but you can hide it really easily unless of course you burst in to tears quite easily.
Everyone has a preferene, and I will go out on a limb and say that I think, and this is totally on my personal experience, that everyone has self harmed atleast a couple of times, take me for instance I am constantly falling in love with people I can never be with, and I fall so hard it hurts I do it knowing full well that I am going to end up hurting myself. But if you can honestly say that you have never sef harmed then I applaud you and you have my sincerest apologies for making such a harsh statement, but if you look inside yourself and see in anyway that you have hurt yourself then raise your hand and be counted as one of the "normal" people. Be proud that you are individual enough to admit to doing something so socially awkward and inconsiderate.
I say inconsiderate and you probably think of it as a negative but in all honest I believe that you are mislead what it means is that you have the ability to remove yourself from your environment enough so that you can forget everyone around you and watch them suffer unknowingly, because they know that you are doing it, no matter how hard you try and hide it with gloves and a change of dress sense, I'm telling you they know, not through ESP or something like that but hey you must be a big enough part of someones for everyone to not notice.
I cannot judge you at all, to some of you a may just be a nerd who spends too much time sat at a computer writing things that hardly anyone reads, and to others I am the shoulder that they cry on when things go wrong, and to the few people who might read this that I know from work will know me as a guy with bad hair a rubbish appearance and a good taste in cookies, but when all is said and done you are the one reading this which kind of makes me think that I am a big enough part of your lives for you to take the time out of your busy schedules (even if it is just playing halo or sitting in an office staring blankly into a screen wondering why you are still in a office when the weather is so lovely) so thank you for making this guy feel a little more needed in a world that doesn't let us know what we mean to it.

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