Well odds on noone will actually read this, but it will also help me get some things off my chest that I can't really talk to people about. But either way if you are reading this then I welcome you to the inside of my mind and I warn you to tread carefully because its not totally stable.
I always feel like I'm getting nowhere in life in everything I do I don't seem to progress in any way not even at work. I'm not even progressing in my home life, I pay a mortgage for my family to live in a house that I love, its got so many hidey-holes and such a comfy roof. Yeah I know its a strange way to describe a roof but hey I don't need to apologise because I sit on it more then you do.
I often feel that I'm not loved by anyone but as EMO as that sounds it is actually a really refreshing way to look at life, it means some days I have not a care in the world but then about once a month my head goes all screwy and I feel the need to get sorted again which normally means grabbing my guitar and one of my collection of hats and sitting on my roof strumming away, its really therapeutic.
It seems like although my head is not all there I still seem to find pleasure in the few things that matter to me, most of those things are actually the people around me just to name a few would not be fair so instead I won't name any of them. anyhoo I'm watching shit tv and eating burnt toast so I'll get back to you and I wish you all the joys of slumber as I watch the waves lap upto the shore of my mind
